It Just Keeps Spinning and Spinning and...

I love my new life. Saying "new life? might sound dramatic but that really is what it is. A new life. I'm different here and so are the people. When I first moved in to the house Chaz was so fucking excited to hear that I DJed. All he has been talking about is how I'm supposed to teach him and how he just wants to watch me spin . He keeps telling me about all these DJs I need to meet so I can start getting connected and what not. So its been awesome. All of Chaz's and Jon's friends that I've met have been insanely nice. I tell them that I came here to DJ and Produce and they keep saying "you came to the right town". I love hearing that more than anything. Its so reassuring. I can't wait to see what the future brings here. From friendships to my career this whole move is going to be a journey.

The funny thing is I keep talking about home. I'm sure this is natural considering its how people adjust and relate to new things. I just never imagined me rambling about the old times I used to have with Josh and Meesh. And by old I really mean like 2 weeks ago haha. Everything feels different and I like it. I'm maturing and changing. Thats really all there is to it. The reminiscing just makes me feel old. Which is kind of silly considering I'm 19.

I spent my last week in Oregon with Katie. It was really nice yet really...interesting? I'm not even sure how to put it. We finally came to terms about everything. She told me that she forgave for what happened between Molli and I. I didn't really even know how to respond. I gave some sort of an awkward thank you and just tried to move on. Which ultimately I think has finally happened between Molli and I. We've moved on. I still think about her. Wonder if she's doing okay.The blog helps haha. Of course I'm still reading it so I get a rough idea of whats been going on with her. I just like to check in on her. Make sure she's okay.

But it wasn't just about Molli. We admitted that we knew we'd never be together past high school. That our different values really did set us apart not matter what we had in common. We also admitted that we love each other. Even though we knew it'd never work out.

Las Vegas is going to bring so many new things. I'm so excited for a new experience. I finally feel like life is going to shake out like its supposed to.